just what I needed....

Just what I needed, daylight savings time, and even less sleep *sigh* I can't wait for this semester to be over and done with! Summer will be nice in terms of a more normal schedule, and I know I'll love one of my classes, however, I'm planning on auditing calc 1, since I took it over a decade ago, and got an "A" in it then, I don't want to mess up my grade, but I do need to reveiw it before I take calc 2, which I'm planning on taking because some of the schools/departments I'm looking into require it, and I want to be prepared. My folks want me to move out west where they are, but I really plan to stay in the area, since I'd love to go down to Florida for school - there's a prof down there who studies exactly what I want to be studing, although honestly I'll study ANYTHING to get back into school. I've been in the real world (ie. business world) for 6+ years now, and it SUCKS!!!! Sure, it works for some people, but since I'm not the type of person who plans my nights/weeks around drinking, which my co-workers have done at every job I've had, it's not really for me. I've even been considering swimming instructing again, but I've been dry for 6 years now, and it's kind of nice to see what I look like with dry hair that doesn't smell of chlorine :P

I found out that my cousin is pregnant again, which is good news for them! My folks told me, and I wasn't sure what I'd feel, since I'm getting close to that "biological clock ticking" age, but I think my clock is still broken, thankfully, since all I felt was happiness from them, if thats what they wanted! My cousin and in-law are good parents, and their first child is a sweetie, but I'm still happy to have the kid go home with them; no urge to keep it :-) Haven't heard much from that side of the family other than that, but still heard more there than I have from the side of the family here. Makes sense though, since 1/2 of the family I'll admit to having here is moving south this year, and the other 1/2 has lives of their own - including middle and high school - to worry about. I talk to my brother more freq than I used to, but other than that, not much has changed. However, since it's spring, I'm going to need to make a run up past my folks old place to see what changes have been made. I've been dreading this, since I really am afraid that the old oak tree, one of the only ones still in the area, will have been cut down. The tree is gorgeous, and huge, and I don't want to think about it having been cut down, after over a century from the size of it, because it doesn't fit the new owners ideal for the yard... *sigh* Sometime people just make me sad.

The good news is, I've been getting back in touch with people I haven't heard from in a long time, which makes me happy, since I've had enough people vanish from my life, and don't need anymore to do so. The bad news is, if I move, they'll prob. vanish again. However, I'm not willing to put my life on hold, now that it's finally started moving forward again...

And because I'm feeling morose, as well as still on my Yellowcard kick, here is my jukebox for today:

"Inside Out"

Here.
A little sympathy
for you to waste on me
I know you're faking it but that's okay
And I
don't want to drag it out
Don't want to bring you down
I never wanted it to end this way

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again

Here.
A little jealousy
I hope you think of me
Hope you wonder where I sleep at night (sleep at night)
Cause I
feel like I'm inside out
You got me upside down
Maybe I was holding on too tight

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again
So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend

The two of us we dream like one
The two of us, the two of us
The two of us take breath like one
The two of us, the two of us[x2]

I guess that this is over now
I guess it's called the falling out
But everyday I'm learning how to make it through this life I'm in

Even if I wanted to
I don't think that I'd get to you
There's nothing I can say to you to make you feel alive again
So don't just say goodbye to me
Just turn your back away and leave
And if you're lucky I will be your last regret, your only friend